The Aftermath
The Aftermath of Domestic Violence
A photo
Aaaaaagh ok so it resulted in a complaint
Looking through torture has made my soul feel faint
But am I giving up no I ain't
It helps to write a simple poem from my heart
It allows my emotions to unscramble and then that's when my heart starts
It opens me up like a book
And I share it so all can take a look
As yes aha my life is as open as a book
On a serious note why do I have no luck?
All that meant so much to me with a simple agreement was took
Yes I lie awake at night breaking my heart and so much as see a child my heart thinks oh fuck.
I've seriously never felt pain like this
I never knew how strong it would feel to miss
To wrap my arms around you and place on your forehead a loving kiss
When the pain squeezes my heart :( ouch all you can do is dream and wish
COME ON IS THERE A GOD UP THERE?
As if there was why is it only a picture on which I stare
Seriously my life has transformed how can we all carry on being punished? This is really no longer fair.
I don't get to watch my Eloise start big school – a memory so important – a memory I'm not good enough to share :(
OMG I wonder how cute you both look like in your uniforms only the uniform you wear.
Do they walk you to school proud and holding your hand?
Would they feel the indepth emotion I would feel as if I was in their place? If they did I would understand.
For heavens sake
Small things like making sure you're within the garden gate
Just making sure you're happy loved and safe
Handing you your tea on a dinner plate
On your birthday giving you the cake I still bake.
Just to see a photo my soul will enlighten and wake.
Come on GOD give us a break
What has life become you will take anything offered to you just to know how happy and settled you both are
Making a guess on if you live in Scotland or further away I just want to no how far
Have you ever fallen yet?
And you you want me there to pick you up and mend you. And you see a face that is not mine and feel so blue.
Am I ever in your dreams?
I dream of you both daily and I will do until I next see you so it seems.
Is it bad to say how much I truly need you both?
Is it selfish to want to hold you both so close?
How are you both supposed to know I love you the most?
You see this is why I am tired do you see how many questions I need answered? This is becoming a part of my life dreaming of the day we reunite
Until then you're both in my heart and the hole that's there will heal when you're both in sight
I love all my children you're all my world so for now n-night may the the angels protect keep you safe and hold you tight